when i`m careless.

how much have I already lost?

when i`m careless,

how much has everybody already  changed?

though i expect early, while really facting it..

how is  the mood    now????

even not now,

whether i will regret in the future,when i have noting AT ALL .

my bright and yongth is dying away.

a lot of  thing

that perhaps i could  have is leaving me.

my fear is uncontrollable.

i`m very frighented i catch the thing  tightly which i can`t see the result,

then i have lost a lot of  things that can`t come again.

suddenly i`m very uneasy to  the unknow future 

just a girl i am 

but  i must  learn braver.

i`m still loving

but i`m  not just  used to in the face of losing.

DON`T BLAME, EVERYTHING HAS GONE OVER.

努力了还是睡得不好

又起来 打开电脑

最近本已奢侈的睡眠

也被侵扰

总是一闭上眼睛

就噩梦连连

头昏脑胀

睁着眼看黑暗的屋子

总感觉有些让人不安的气息

一个人住了那么久

第一次对莫名未知的东西有些畏惧起来

我有个很糟糕很糟糕的习惯

每每睡不安稳

总是会上网乱转

看看别人的生活来慰藉自己半夜空洞的情绪

确实这真是个很糟糕的选择

每次。

允许让我的欢喜心暂且安置一边一点点的时间

完。